My Life is so Great...

Memories

2010-07-26T08:46:00.000-07:00

Damn piss with myself ... Seriously , Why am i so stupid ? ...
I shouldn even have brought back those memories ...
Why cant i learn from others ?
People like Cynara , that would empty her mind from what she doesn want to remember ?
Why cant i be like Kenneth ?
Why cant i be like My buddies ?
they doesn even have these problems ,
But why doesn all of this sorts of things came one after another ?
Why ?? ...
The worst is , i cant even be myself ...
WTF is wrong with my life ?
Its so F*** Up ...
Why cant I Just delete everything off my mind ???

I seriously need to find a way to Numb myself , in order to put these at the back of my mind and stop thinking about it...
I really hope God would help me ..

Cries...i need a shoulder
I sound so gay .. O M G
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2010-06-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

hey you. i'm here to help my jun hao kor to update his blog.
he is busying with his work and have no timen t blog or wht.
he's tired and sick now.
jun hao kor, do rest well and takecare !
get well soon ! (:
cya soon too ! [:
erm, erm, erm.
dunno wht t write le wor.
he'll update his blog whn he's free. (:
byebye (:

Im Gona show u One of my Classmate

2010-02-27T07:38:00.000-08:00

This is one of my Best buddies in Class...
These Pictures made me laugh when im sad...
Good thing i took these Photos..Thank Myself and Haiwen for making funny faces!!

UPLOADING ABORTED

2010-02-27T06:47:00.000-08:00

Didn manage to upload pictures...Quality too good...
it will take a few days...Maybe~
No more pics to show..go face book see bahh..
Thank you.

..i love you..

2010-02-20T07:03:00.000-08:00

My blog so dead..TT
Last week was great,
went out with chee heng, watched movie etc.
Yesterday, went Kbox with Ruth & Cynara..Spended so much money, im so broke..but i got a chance to hear them sing LOL...Ruth sounded really special..thats what Cyn. told me
Cyn sounded like a child..LOLs
i laugh until throat explode...
i guess going out with friends really makes me really happy..
It prevents me from thinking too much...
Days past, memories of us keep appearing in my mind...
i cant take it..you noe how much i worry that day?
When teacher called, i was really shocked..i felt helpless..Thank god u were fine..
If i could be with u again, i would definitely be a better guy..
but i doubt that will be happening ...its okay..
LOl..Today was great,
actually plan to take pictures with Synergy group members, but seems that everybody not very free..HaiWen CB , put aeroplane..Darryl cant make it, Alwin overseas, Sam = No comment
Jiali attending church thingy, calvin wanted to come..jovyn = no comment,Cx dun want come TT
....
so i went taking photos with Venson and Choon kiat~ my Secondary school Buddies ^^
so fun...Went to KTV with Yuping Venson and choon kiat today..
Its a miracle that i went today, as i have never went out with them last time..
Not even once to KTV..
so, today really happy oso ~
Took so many pictures at Orchard road...went to window shop, see them buy clothes,
ate dinner at Justacia...the food was great..Its only $6.00 ++ per meal
and u get free flow of Drinks , Ice-Cream etc...Wow!..
VENSON!!! u FORGOT TO CLAIM UR F 1.8 LENS from me!!!

Anyway, Thanks for today..See u guys next friday~
Choon Kiat owe me $6.90
Venson owe me $3.10
TOTAL = $ 10 .00
~~~~~~

I totally cant get rid of it...wtf..
u dun noe how i feel , and u wont noe how i feel..
Its terrible..
F.

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2010-02-16T07:02:00.000-08:00

Today was great...Went to Vivo city, walk walk , den went to Best Denki,
Bought my SONY ALPHA 230 DSLR camera... So HAPPY~
We then went to sentosa~LOL...my bro and sis damn annoying~
Pester us to bring them go ~ so hot there...
Haiis, schhol starts tml~ so fast..
and its JIALI's Bdae~ Bash him up!
Buay ~ stay tuned!

was that the end?

2010-02-13T09:06:00.000-08:00

After this long relationship with you,
it is really dificult for me to forget you...
I seriously dun understand what u want from me anymore...
u doesnt wanna explain, but its okay now..
In the past, we were steads...
u told me not to ditch you...
u let me visualise the future...
u let me think of imposible things...
But in the end, everything changed...
and the only thing u could told me was...
''That was in the past, i have moved on''
This really cracks my heart...
yes, we broke up many times , and patched many times...
because of stupid reasons...
I changed so much because of you...
I changed this , I changed that...
It seems that u were not pleased at all...
i feel that i have already did what i could...

Everytime you say something, i didn understand...
im sry...maybe i too stupid to understand anything u say...

If i noe that u were going to leave me from the start.
i should have heed my parents advise...

i really dunno what made u change your mind so fast...
i bet u dunno how i feel...
u are the first girl that make me cried,
u are the first girl that had loved me so much,
and had let me love u so much...
i really cannot bare to forget the whole entire 4 years of
what we went through together...
I hope that you will find the guy u really loves...
and will really takecare of you...
im sry..i couldn be your guy...

after all you said..i ought to put a fullstop to this le...
.

WTF~

2010-02-11T17:39:00.001-08:00

Seriously , never expected a fever coming...
my head damn pain...like people pressing it...
38.5 C...zzzWth...new year sick..sibei suay..
JIBAI!!~
off to sleep...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !~ (cont)

2010-02-11T05:35:00.000-08:00

so happy...
if u were with me, i will be happier..
my mum bought a nice cake... eat alot ..LOL
grow fatter...zzZ
Ngor and my sec school mates called me and shouted HAPPY BDAE..LOLs
So Gandong...
Aunt give hong bao! LOL,
Total = dunno how much .. THANK YOU LOADS...

Happy Bdae to me~

2010-02-11T02:58:00.000-08:00

Today, went to a field trip ,Walked the whole day, take pics here and there...
I got a super headache , feel like vomitting LOL...
Classmates sang Bdae song for me...make me malu malu ... LOL
Thanks for all the wishes...
I received ur message...
i was really happy..
may my wishes come true bahh...
Ytd, Ngor treat me at aston
Haiwen treat me lunch,
Jovyn treat me Ice cream,
Cuixin bought me a birthday gift,
Receiving it nxt week...
THANK YOU GUYS!!!
I really hope that the one celebrating my bdae with me is you,
but i dun think that will happen bahh..
nahh just wild thoghts..anyway...my parents coming over to celebrate Bdae now..

BYEBYE~

Thanks! ~

2010-02-08T05:23:00.001-08:00

Thank you for forgiving me !!
JY for your N levels!!!
Jus now went to compass point to shop..
Bought a nice bag from 77th street ~ So HAPPY!!!
pierced left ear!! Feel like nothing LOl...
Now gonna chiong my work !! JYJY all synergy members !

Tomodachi ~

2010-02-07T07:35:00.001-08:00

Wa piang..this few days, spended so much money...nid save up agn...zzzZ
Bout clothes ytd, bought shoes today, Bought a nice watch...So Nice larhss...
LOLs...I WAN BUY DSLR, I WAN BUY Alien ware lappie !!! I wan buy alot of things, but currently broke...zzzZ
Anyway, i sure kena on tuesday...Havent even do the assignments..zzz
Go chiong now..!!!
Buay~lets sing

[KH] Dao le ming tian shuo hao bu zai jian mian
Zuo zai jie wei de dian wo yi ge ren dian le bei xiang nian
[ZM] Dao le ming tian zhi neng rang ai ca jian
Liang ge ren de xiao lian tian lian qian bian cheng fan huang de zhao pian

[RW] Shen bian ([H] ji mo zai man yan)
Shi xian (bei lei shui mo hu jiao dian)
Ba "wo ai ni" liu zai le xin di fang zai le chun bian

[HG] Dao le ming tian ni jiu li kai wo shen bian
[SW] Dao le ming tian du zi xiang liu xin xu yuan
Xiang yi chang dian ying de wan jie pian
[H] Wo men de jie ju ying yan lei shui de yu yan
[KH] Sui le yi di de nuo yan ping cou bu hui de zuo tian
Ke wo reng qi dai qi ji hui chu xian, oh no
[H] Er ni shen ying yue lai yue yuan

[HG] Ai hai liu zai wo fang jian
Hui yi hai hen xin xian yi shun jian
Gan jue ni jiu zai yan qian

[ZM] Shen bian ([H] ji mo zai man yan)
Zhe shi xian (bei lei shui mo hu jiao dian)
Yi ju "wo ai ni" shen shen liu zai le xin di fang zai le chun bian

[SW] Dao le ming tian ni jiu li kai wo shen bian
[DH] Dao le ming tian du zi xiang liu xin xu yuan
Xiang yi chang dian ying de wan jie pian
[H] Wo men de jie ju ying yan lei shui de yu yan
[RW] Sui le yi di de nuo yan ping cou bu hu de zuo tian
Ke wo yi zhi qi dai qi ji hui chu xian, oh no
[SW] Er ni li qu shen ying que yue lai yue yuan

[ZM] Mei you ni ai kai shi dong mian
Gu dan hui zhan ju mei yi tian
Wo zhan zai lu deng xia mian leng qing de jie bian
[RW] Na ge ceng xiang yong de di dian
[KH] Shi wo men yi qi duo guo yu de wu yan, oh

[HG] Dao le ming tian ni jiu li kai wo shen bian
[SW] Dao le ming tian du zi xiang liu xin xu yuan
Xiang yi chang dian ying de wan jie pian
[H] Wo men de jie ju ying yan lei shui de yu yan
[KH] Sui le yi di de nuo yan ping cou bu hu de zuo tian
Ke wo reng qi dai qi ji hui chu xian, oh no

[DH] Wo yi ran hai huai nian xiang ai de cong qian
[ZM] Wo yi ran hai deng ni hui dao wo shen bian
Lei liu zai wo bing leng de zhen bian
[RW] An xia zan ting de shi jian zhi dao ni zai ci chu xian
Wu fa cheng shou mei you ni de mei yi tian, oh no

Wo ai ni bu hui gai bian
[KH] Wo ai zhe ni dao yong yuan

Will ,

2010-02-04T05:09:00.000-08:00

Lol, Back to post.. Today all i did in the morning was play Minesweeper in the Lab..LOls
So fun...I damn pro now~Thx to Hai wen..Any way, today Mr lim tell us to take picture..
take a lil here and there then finish liao...
After that went to chat with Cynara's group,Hakim,Gek mui,Ruth,Cyn,Me, and XingXing...so
funny...we making fun of Gek mui~ Soli nahh!!

After school, when back to band...
Saw her, Saw many old friends...Freaking awesome...''I will not look back''
LOls...anyway, went home after that...

Synergy & Witherless merge = ??
If this 2 group merge, I sibei happy...
cos witherless got many sporty people LOLs
So tired..Go orhorh liao...

_l_(o.O)_l_

2010-02-03T03:57:00.000-08:00

School was great Today, as usual lahh..Joke around and all..LOls
Wore my new specs, look let toot kia LOl..
I go cant Mushroom head..become ah siao~
Ytd , met Ngor and SiMin..
Talk , Talk , Counsel and counsel...
Ngor and SiMin damn cute de..they fighting all the way LOL..
Simin say she is Love doctor .. u believe?
Thanks u both !!
LOls.. went home after that..

I became the translator of Hai Wen, as he is new and he dun noe how to speak english..
So damn funny LOls..
Cynara, ur face so poor thing larh , hope u recover from that cut ..
XingXing want change group, i so sad..LOls

JIA LI!! hope we get a nice room on friday...
So tired today...
If this is what u have decided, no point saying those to u anymore...
I will give up..
.......
Ngor u lose ur match today TT...
I so sad for u!! JYJY NXT TIME~

Heart Broken..

2010-02-01T06:50:00.000-08:00

I went to your place today...
Waited for a few hours...
Finally see your face...I felt relieved..
i havent seen your face for a very long time...
U noe how much i missed you??
I noe that u doesn wish to see me...Sry for being selfish...
Even if i can only see u for a few seconds, im happy enough..
I really wanted to cry... U were once my shoulder..but not anymore...
I meant what i say...
Sorry..

Nearly took wrong bus..Heng Fifi saved me..
Today in class, LifeSkill was doing nth...LOL~ watch people play game..Looking at fareez flirting..
LOLs...
mr Tzang showed us Kill bill...damn nice..LOLs
BYEBYE orhorh liao~

To Her Friends...

2010-01-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

Yes, You guys may think that im a jerk ..
So im sorry okay?
I admit that im the worst friend u guys ever had in the world..
I Never noe you guys that much at all..
Im always living in my own world...
Sorry for being antisocial...
Sorry for causing you guys trouble..
Sorry..thats all..

For you.

2010-01-30T04:32:00.000-08:00

I hope this post will get to you...
Thank you for being with me the past four years..
I appreciate what you did for me...
For so long, i have not been a good Boyfriend..i caused you to cry..
i caused you to be sad , and many thing else...
All i have to say is im sorry...ok?

4years...any idea how long that is?
I've been anti social for 4years..
4 years of really a long period of time..
and you are the first that i love so much..
and the first to leave me so suddenly..
You noe how is the feeling?
Every night i cry..nobody noes...
When i wanna chat, i call you..
You noe wad u said every time?
you only say bye..then u hang up..
Do you noe how i feel?
Nahh its okay now..

We have been together for 4 years,
I guess it will take another 4 years to forget you...
Love is like a quicksand , The deeper u fall in it, the harder it is to get out..
Im sorry..
I noe i deserve it..
Fuck My Life...

2010-01-29T08:10:00.001-08:00

Depress...

2010-01-28T06:47:00.000-08:00

Class was Ok today, tml will be better...
Cynara told me she wan change ITE...i sibei sad liao...
Cui xin patched with him~ hope u have made the right decision...
I call u, u said Bye..Lols...

GUYS, i have no phone now...CALL MY HOME!!! 65551421!!

Nothing to post Bye....

L-O-V-E

2010-01-27T02:11:00.000-08:00

Back to post again...After so many days of rushing for project, feel so tired..finally can don't do homework for awhile..But after i handed in the project,Mr Tzang told us that another project will be introduced to us today..sadded...
Stress again~LOLs
I super love rainie yang & Show luo~
Both so compatible~

Cynara , you nidda thank me horh~!!!!!
Dunno wad to write lols,
Go play DOTA liao
Cui Xin today in Love mode , Lols..

Gd Night~

Sad..

2010-01-25T16:47:00.001-08:00

Currently at the comp' lap...So sian, wish that day during the vivo city trip i should have brought my cam along..nahh its ok..

so bored here see Sam's ''shuai'' face, makes me so high..LOLs
didn get to sit with XingXing, so sad LOLs~

Dalang & BaoZhu jie is so sweet...super love show luo and Rainie yang..
Their songs are wonderful..

many many things happens...it makes our lifes wonderful..

Things changes, Friends leaves...But Life doesn stop for everybody.

2010-01-23T07:33:00.000-08:00

Im super in love with Hai Pai Tian Xin now...
Finally watched till epi 12..LOLs
SHOW and RANIE = Perfect couple..
Handsome + pretty..
Anyway.. Today, stayed at home the whole morning...
Staring into space,doesn wanna do anything...
hugged my cushion dog, Bring go watch Hai Pai Tian Xin..
I watch this series, Thx to 2 wonderful lady from my class..
Xing Xing & Cynara..
LOLs Thx u both man...
this show makes me cry...
this is the first time im crying while watching the show...
Guys out there..go watch it too..worth it man..

went swim with my bro and sis in the afternoon...
my sis always Drowns in the pool...

i saw her sinking in to the pool...i tot should be floating?
LOLs ..weird horh..

Anybody wan her number? i can give it to u...
she quite pretty larh..LOLs

At night, my cousin came over...She miss me thats why...jkjk..
we play piano, play board games...as usual ..
THANKS FOR COMING..

thats all for today...^^

So funny~

2010-01-21T02:52:00.000-08:00

today, Dad fetch me to school...
had class...Quite boring, but fun...Cos we didn really study...
Chat Chat Chat and Chat...then Joke around as usual...
I think making people smile is my passion man..im so good at that,Self praise..
Today Sam abit siao~Snatch ALL my ''Bring Safety Home''
So freaking irritating...
Something happen jus now...I felt damn embarass..
Kena Suan like WTH..LOl

while going home, Sam very angry with me..because i RUN away from him...
LOLs...anywaes SOLI ar SAM..

Jus now went to Cristofori music school to apply for a job to teach piano part time..
but, they didn have any vacancy...so damn sad..im gona call up all the cristofori music schools man...now im so depress... TT
But its okay~
tomorrow will be a better day man,
Synergy & Gonzales
HUAT AR!

Another day..

2010-01-20T03:35:00.000-08:00

today, class was ok lo,
Mr Tzang nv come , miss janice take over...
She damn niao...heng im not in class A...
After Miss Janice went off, Mr lim took over..
So relieved...he show us movie, Title ''Life is wonderful '' or beautiful LOLs
Movie so nice LOLs..i slept for the first half ..LOLs

Suddenly became so Emo, thinking of the past always makes me feel like this...
Its okay..i've decided to not call u as much anymore...
i wish my ex Gd luck in wad she does...

CUI XIN, dun think about it lerh~cheers..

DOTA so fun...Name = Tiny..but become very big LOLs...

Bye..

Fuck Up~

2010-01-19T04:40:00.000-08:00

Hey im back..
Today, class was ok,
us usual, i would make people laugh,and people make me laugh too..
Usual sit with CuiXin, she crazy about Luo Zhi Xiang..LOLs
I super duper Thank her for being my Candy supplier ..THANKS XINGXING!!

Today morning,That ShannyBoy''Sam chiam'' , look so damn emo..i think he jealous of some ppl LOLS...

Anyway, Phototaking session Organised by Our Mr LimKS...LOLS
i became model agn...That GUAN KENG lahh, make me do Gay Pose...zzzzZZZZ,

That Cynara,Talked to me...so surprised..
Sam regain conciousness after that...
Learning how to use the ADOBE After Effects software...LOLs so fun...
now i noe how ppl make movie films..
so cool...
Nvm...

jus reached home not long ago...Quite worried about Cui Xin, as shes having some probs in her relationship..i listened to her, then i realised, we hav the same problem...
Now i noe how my ex GF feels...thx to xingxing...
i've regretted alot...
But its too late...Hahas, Life still hav to go on..
Moving on and a sudden change for me is really dificult..
...
i hope God will guide me through the road he had chosen for me...
XING XING , dun sad, dun cry...THE GONZALES FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE! ^^

i hope my secondary school friends will JYJY for their Os ,Miss u guys..
6 kings of heaven aka 6 DA TIAN WANG.

...Bye

New Blog..

2010-01-18T04:23:00.001-08:00

I suddenly jus feel like blogging .. Recently,many many things happened in my life..i think that this blog is the only way i can express how i feel...It may appear to u guys that im a very cheerful guy who jus always laughs..yea, im a person that is always happy...But of course, theres times that im really down...

Anyway, im really happy to know u guys in AV1001B, people from SYNERGY , Gonzales Etc. i dun really have much friends that were close to me Except for my Girlfriend and afew good friends...i jus broke up with my girl friend not long ago...now im trying to heal myself man...

i really cant forget about her...That day we broke, she told me that she will be my best friend...but till now, she has been shutting me away from her life...we are like total strangers now...Guys , imagine how i feel...Thx Ngor for comforting me..

but i dun give a damn now..
Anyways,i've jus been baptised on '17th Jan 2010' God have prepared a way for me to walk...
it will be tough..but i will nv give up...I believe God would definitely show me the way...Amen..

Anyone noes how to change the Blogskin?
im having trouble here...LOLs..

I Will Update blog if i got the time...
Love u guys...